Three years ago, Australian actress Ruby Rose had hit rock bottom. Since then, the Orange is the New Black star’s career has blossomed.
When a fan tweeted her to remind her just how far she had come in three years, Ruby said it was a wake-up call and she was motivated to pen an inspiring message to those suffering from depression.
Included was a tweet from March 31, 2013, in which Ruby had written: “It is with great sadness that despite everything I have tried in the short time I was given I am still losing my battle with depression.”
That came after Ruby was forced to cancel a string of shows and work commitments. She abruptly left Australia for America where she checked into rehab for treatment.
“I had hit a rock bottom,” she wrote. “I couldn’t find happiness anywhere except my dog’s face and even that wasn’t enough.
“I thought I had failed at being a human being an adult.”
Ruby said she spent her life savings on “overpriced rehab and a lot of therapy”.
“I’m just feeling reflective because I chose to fight and I thought it meant I’d be able to live. I DIDN’T think it meant I’d be able to live my dream,” she said.
“I DIDN’T think it would result in this extraordinary life I get to be a part of now … it just makes me wonder how many others are days, hours, seconds away from realising their worth, their potential … and once the dark cloud is lifted will be truly happy and free.”
Ruby has previously revealed she was sexually abused, suffered from bullying and attempted to take her own life when she was just 12.
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See Ruby’s full Instagram post below:
A fan just tweeted this to me.. 3 years ago to the day. What a wake up call.. I’d be lying if I didn’t say it shook me up..to see it.. To be reminded.. This feeling, this moment.. When I posted this in relation to abruptly leaving Australia cancelling a string of shows and commitments.. I had hit a rock bottom.. I couldn’t find happiness anywhere except my dogs face and even that wasn’t enough. I thought I had failed at being a human being an adult. I didn’t know what to do so I left for America to work with trauma therapists and I spent pretty much all the money I had made in my life on an overpriced rehab and a lot of therapy. ( There are definitely other ways to do it ) … I slept on a blow up mattress when I got my first apartment in Santa Monica, I adopted a dog before I furnished my place 😑 .. My dog, Ru, had a bed before me… I don’t want to ramble on, I’m just feeling reflective because I chose to fight and I thought it meant I’d be able to live. I DIDNT think it meant I’d be able to live my dream. I DIDNT think it would result in this extraordinary life I get to be a part of now… It just makes me wonder how many others are days, hours, seconds away from realizing their worth.. Their potential.. And once the dark cloud is lifted will be truly happy and free.. #wealldeservetobehere #wealldeservetobehappy